Trust.

Is it human nature to feel lonely? What is this with everyone saying they are?
I feel at least it is a majority of people that complain about being completely surrounded by others and still feeling completely alone. My problem is feeling empty and in turn that makes me feel lonely. I just feel like no matter how I explain myself or try to get someone to understand me I just sound like a babbling hysterical fool. The loneliness I experience I feel is the loneliness I create for myself. I can be in an amazing relationship, have tons of friends, and genuinely be loved by others and I still think it's false. My problem is trust. I can never get myself to trust others. The pain runs so deep that I can't forgive and forget it. It's like a constant headache that wont go away. I will forget about it momentarily but it comes right back. Why can't I understand trust.

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I have lost my faith
my will and desire
I have lost all hope
To walk in the fire
won't you take my hand
show me the way
dance with me
set my soul on fire

All is lost....

I have lost my ability to write.

Dreamer

I feel like I'm stuck in a dream, or a nightmare. I can't really differentiate at this point in time. My dream consists of me walking around. As I walk alone I search for someone else, only to find that I am alone. I walk and walk and walk. I find myself back in the same place I started in. No matter how much I walk in different directions I always wind up right back in my starting position. What if I never wake up? What if I'm stuck in this labyrinth that is my mind forever?